Childish

Sometimes I feel like a grown up in disguise.

I thought when I grew up that I would be wise

It seems like I wear an “Adult” mask

I thought being older made me equal to the task

When I was young I thought I knew what growing up meant

I would be taller and smarter and do what I want

I would know what to do and have a solution

I would be wise and prepared for each situation

I try to not to worry but I feel I pretend

Like I am still playing house just like I was then

But now it is different; it is worse, in fact

I know I am faking, and it is all just an act

But the people around me are real and true

I can make mistakes and not know what to do

They will see I am not the adult I should be

The consequences will hurt not only me

I want my mother and father to say

That they are in charge and all is okay

At this time in my life when I feel most like a child

When I am meek and humble and mild

I am most prepared for advice and submission

And ready to listen to another’s decision

Is the time I have learned to turn to God

To seek His counsel and lean on His rod

In His presence I realize

I have no need of an grown up disguise

I am His child and He is my Father

To Him my problems are not a bother

He can protect and give me His care

And teach me to love and teach me to share

I learn from His example and compassion

I make myself in His kind of fashion

A true kind of grown up who knows what to say:

“When the going gets tough, the tough go to pray”

by Michelle Steimle